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I haven't been updating because I've been working on my new website. Check out this link to see some before and in-progress photos. :)

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For the love of food,
~The Food Lovin Diva

5 Months...

Well I'm 5 months in this weekend. Down just under 30 pounds. I think that's pretty awesome. I'm only gonna blow my own horn for a second. I never thought I would make it this far, let alone be willing to continue the journey. I still have just under 60 pounds to go. I sort of wish I had measured instead of the scale, but now that I'm this far I can't really switch as much as I can do both.

To some 30 pounds doesn't seem like alot. Heck, not a single person I have seen to date has said a word or noticed... or maybe it's that fear that I didn't lose and they will sound foolish saying something... I don't know. Either way, that has been a bit disconcerting only because those who know me, love it or leave it, I like getting a good pat on the back for my hard work. However it's my closet that rewards me.

I still have my size 40 jeans folded on the top shelf to remind me what I never want to fit into again. Sitting here at my desk in my size 34 hip huggers from Bluenotes speaks for my hard work I guess. The last time I wore a size 34 jean I was in High School.... So for this victory I am proud of myself and the success.

Now, I need to channel those feelings into the next part of this lifelong journey. I know realistically I will not achieve my weight goal for Christmas. However I have moved that goal to my 30th Birthday. February 1st, I want to have lost 50lbs total. This commitment means 20 pounds in 3 months. This will entail a major commitment to physical activity. I want to spice it up over the winter. I'm secretly hoping Santa brings me an Elliptical Trainer. A girl can dream.

So with the past 5 months behind me, I know now what works, what doesn't. I know that sure I can eat take out once a week, but I have to balance it out. So with that, I go forward.

Bring on Fifty gone for Thirty!

For the love of Food,
~The Food Lovin' Diva

"For success, attitude is equally as important as ability"

So far so good....

Last week I cleaned up my act a bit and it was reflected on the scale. I am down 2 more pounds...YAY! This week has started off excellent. I usually have treat day on Saturday. It is the only day I use any flex points. This weekend I did not use a single one. It was odd. But more so because I just wasn't hungry for them.

Today I walked the nature park, which is 6.5 kms. I wouldn't mind doing that one more time this week and of course I plan on mixing the gym in there too. 1.4lbs to reach 30!! So close.

I guess I realized I didn't work this hard since June to give up now. Rough patches happen. Just gotta get through them. Pebble, not a mountain. ;-)

Thanks ML for the encouragement!

For the love of food,
~The Food Lovin' Diva

"For success, attitude is equally as important as ability"

The Struggle

I may have survived Florida, and the week after. However some stress in my life has me all topsy turvy. I gained a bit last week, and I know it was mainly because of stress. I didn't go over points as much as I filled them with crappy foods and didn't get to the gym nearly enough. Now this week it's Thursday. I've only been to the gym once this week. I've eaten within my points all week and for the first time I feel like I'm losing my grip on this weight loss.

I'm very much aware of what I need to do to lose. But due to some real life curve balls the drive just shot right out of me. I still think of when I'm at my ideal weight and not if. Just feels like this *pebble* is becoming a mountain.

I'm gonna be at the Meeting on Saturday.... I'm hoping it can get me out of this rut before it becomes a sinkhole.

I know I can do it, I just gotta find my ambition that seems to have deflated.

If anyone out there still reads, feel free to message me with some kick start ideas!

For the love of Food,
~The Food Lovin' Diva

"It's just a pebble, It's just a pebble, It's just a pebble" ~ me